Friday, July 14
- Friday, July 14, 2006
i feel like a balloon.all i need is that one tiny prickle for me to burst.
that just means,
i'm losing it.-
i can't take this anymore, i just can't. How can they simply say they understand, when they clearer don't?! i'm just caught in between everyone & being the filial daughter. it's this & that i have to do & i keep telling myself to tolerate. reading this, you can simply say '' oh, then voice out ur opinion lah! ''
but how can i? everytime i do, mom simply scolds me. nowadays, it's just '' kelly, stop being selfish'' & '' stop complaining''. & that line's always said after i say 'yar i understand why things are this way'. even how ignorant i am towards what my parents' say, it just gets to me so much whenever she says that.
how many people know that i've been crying for 3 nites in a row, cos of frustration, cos i don't have a shoulder to lean on. No one. Because i just don't open up, cos if i do, i'm gonna start crying like crazy. It happened the other day, when i told sam a bit about how i felt. & already, i felt the tears build up. & i didn't wanna create a scene by sobbing in the middle of lesson, so i just stopped there & never spoke of it again.
-kel